1. <p>my brother, brandon, sent this to me. his and my mom's email etiquette is pretty atrocious. they forward a lot of stuff without removing the headers from the body of the post and all those god forsaken &gt;&gt;&gt; before every line making it nearly impossible to read. not to mention everyone who ever gets one of their forwards will get everyone else's email address because they don't use bcc and in this age of spam onslaughts that's valuable data worth hiding. but alas, a good little forward made its way through my mental email crap filter. i think the big text and bright colors helped. [very <a href="http://www.colorcombos.com/combotester.html?rnd=0&amp;color0=507846&amp;color1=decade&amp;color2=ff5c00&amp;color3=3fbcec&amp;color4=f5f5f5&amp;color5=1676f9&amp;color6=ffea00&amp;color7=f36d21&amp;color8=000000">web</a> <a href="http://www.flock.com/">2.0</a>]</p>
    
    <p>so without further apu... here's the email.</p>
    
    <div style="font:24px Georgia;color:#000;margin:0 0 12px;">
      <p>TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED BEING BORN DURING the 1930's 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's !!</p>
      <p style="color:#001974;">First, we survived being born to mothers who took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes while they were pregnant.</p>
      <p>Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-based paints.</p>
      <p>We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when werode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention, the risks we took hitchhiking.</p>
      <p style="color:#277726;">As infants &amp; children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, booster seats, seat belts or air bags.</p>
      <p style="color:#001974;">Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat.We drank water from a garden hose and not from a bottle.</p>
      <p style="color:#237b7c;">We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE actually died from this.</p>
      <p style="color:#277726;">We ate cupcakes, white bread and real butter and drank koolade made with sugar, but we weren't overweight because.</p>
      <p style="color:#277726;">WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING!</p>
      <p style="color:#001974;">We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as long as we were backwhen the streetlights came on.</p>
      <p>No one was able to reach us all day. And we were O.K.</p>
      <p style="color:#001974;">We would spend hours building our go-carts out of scraps and then ride downthe hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes. After running into the bushes a few times, we learned to solve the problem.</p>
      <p style="color:#237b7c;">We did not have Playstations, Nintendo's, X-boxes, no video games at all, no 150 channels on cable, no video movies or DVD's, no surround-sound or CD's, no cell phones, no personal computers, no Internet or chat rooms...</p>
      <p style="color:#237b7c;">WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them!</p>
      <p style="color:#772778;">We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no lawsuits from these accidents.</p>
      <p style="color:#4eee4b;">We ate worms and mud pies made from dirt, and the worms did not live in us forever.</p>
      <p>We were given BB guns for our 10th birthdays!</p>
      <p>We made up games with sticks and tennis balls and, although we were told it would happen, we did not put out very many eyes.</p>
      <p style="color:#001974;">We rode bikes or walked to a friend's house and knocked on the door or rangthe bell, or just walked in and talked to them!</p>
      <p style="color:#772778;">Little League had tryouts and not everyone made the team. Those who didn't had to learn to deal with disappointment. Imagine that!</p>
      <p style="color:#0032e6;">And what the heck is T-Ball all about???</p>
      <p style="color:#001974;">The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard of. They actually sided with the law!</p>
      <p style="color:#772778;">These generations have produced some of the best risk-takers, problem solvers and inventors ever!</p>
      <p style="color:#001974;">The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.</p>
      <p style="color:#001974;">We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learnedHOW TO DEAL WITH IT ALL!</p>
      <p style="color:#791c1a;">If YOU are one of them ... CONGRATULATIONS!</p>
      <p style="color:#0032e6;">You might want to share this with others who have had the luck to grow up askids, before the lawyers and the government regulated so much of our lives "for our own good."</p>
      <p style="color:#791c1a;">And while you are at it, forward it to your kids so they will know how brave (and lucky) their parents were.</p>
    </div>
    
    <p>ps. i've been listening to <a href="http://plan-it-x.com/catalog.html#madeline">madeline</a> a LOT lately. you should be, too. seriously, go listen to her.</p>
    
      <p>i'm moving to seattle.</p>
    
      <p>i don't know if all four of you caught that from a <a href="http://veganstraightedge.com/articles/2006/3/21/3/little-guy-proclaims-his-love/">previous post</a>. which by the way, apparently no one caught that i did not write that post, but instead my girlfriend, <a href="http://emilyvoss.wordpress.com/">emily</a>, did. she thought it would be cute and clever since i had left my lappy logged into my blog. oops. [for the record, i thought it was cute and clever, too. if i didn't i could have deleted it.]</p>
    
      <p><a href="http://zinedistro.org/">zinedistro</a> is up and running. we are also <a href="http://weblog.zinedistro.org/">blogging about zd stuff</a>. for example, all of zinedistro will be <a href="http://weblog.zinedistro.org/2006/3/26/zdhouse-seattle/">living in one house.</a></p>
    
      <p>we leave salt lake city for seattle tomoro morning. i'm pretty ready to go. just a trip to the post office, lunch with a friend, watching a couple episodes of lost and packing the van. pretty relaxed compared to the normals moves that i do. [and i've done plenty.]</p>
    
      <p>i'm also really really stoked to be living with eli again. we've talked about living together for realsies like this for years. since he was still in high school. i've lived on his couch before, but that's not the same. plus, there were the 5 other College Dudes to deal with. [by the way, it doesn't mean i'm NOT excited to lived with brookis, emily or meredith. eli and i just have a LOT of history.]</p>
    
      <p>so if you know me and we didn't get to say goodbye before i left SLC, i am dearly sorry. i will miss you and this city more than you know. additionally, if you ever want to come to seattle, you have a place to stay.</p>
    
      <p>get my address from any of our mutual friends or from me directly : veganstraightedge [at] gmail dot com.**</p>
    
      <p>*ps. that title is pretty meaningless. its just what this one kid thought was the lyrics to this song. needless to say it wasn't. i thought of it, b/c i was gonna title this 'just a quickie' then decided against it.</p>
    
      <p>**pps. i hate that we've resorted to writing email addresses this way b/c of asshole spiders crawling or addresses to spam.</p>
    
    <p>well, not so much like funny ha ha. but more like funny awesome.</p>
    
    <blockquote>"The Universe is difficult to comprehend because it is obvious" -Albert Einstein"</blockquote>
    
    <blockquote>
      File upload limits were discussed and a simple solution was figured out…<br>
      Ryan: what are we trying to avoid with a limit? won't a gigantic file just time out anyway?<br>
      Jason: thats' the problem. "Why didn't my file transfer work?" "What happened to the file I uploaded" "Why didn't the upload finish?"<br>
      Ryan: less software idea..we could just say there's a limit. and then if people try something bigger and it works, then good for them<br>
      Jason: I like that best. done."
    </blockquote>
    
    <blockquote>"You hear weird things on TV. Marcel heard this on a Dish network ad: "Nothing is worse than paying too much for television". Sure, the war in Iraq, the genocide in Darfur, and the destruction of Katrina may be bad…but nothing is worse than paying too much for television. Also: "I know you. You have rheumatoid arthritis" is the first line in an ad I saw for some prescription drug. Whoa, I had no idea. I am now considering moving to Florida."</blockquote>
    
    <p>(Via <a href="http://37signals.com/svn/archives2/fly_on_the_wall_if_the_scientists_ever_cross_a_rat_and_an_octopus_were_screwed.php">Fly on the wall: "if the scientists ever cross a rat and an octopus, we're screwed" - Signal vs. Noise (by 37signals)</a>.)</p>
    
    <p>i've wanted this for awhile, just never put much effort into it.</p>
    
    <blockquote>
      <p>Moving the Dock to the top requires this Terminal command (assuming you don't find a GUI utility to do it for you):</p>
    
      <p><code>defaults write com.apple.dock orientation -string top</code></p>
    </blockquote>
    
    <p>(Via <a href="http://www.oreillynet.com/mac/blog/2006/3/dock_on_top.html">Dock on Top - O'Reilly Mac DevCenter Blog</a>.)</p>
    
    <p>UPDATE: this doesn't seem to work in Leopard. oh well.</p>
    
    <p>Currently playing in iTunes: <i>The Lemon of Pink</i> by The Books</p>
    
    <p>sometimes people you would never expect to say certain things go right ahead and say them.</p>
    
    <blockquote>There's a quote by Oystein Dahle close to a decade ago now, after the collapse of the Soviet Union. He was for many years Exxon's vice president for Norway and the North Sea. He said, 'Socialism collapsed because it did not allow the market to tell the economic truth. Capitalism may collapse because it does not allow the market to tell the ecological truth.' That's a lot of wisdom distilled into those two sentences.</blockquote>
    
    <p>sometimes they say them, but most the time they don't do anything. here's to hope.</p>
    
    <p>(Via <a href="http://www.wired.com/news/politics/lifescience/0,70455-0.html?tw=rss.index">Wired News: Saving the Planet With Plan B 2.0</a>.)</p>
    
    <p>Currently playing in iTunes: <i>Pickpocket</i> by At The Drive-In</p>
    
    <p><a href="http://globalguerrillas.typepad.com/johnrobb/2006/3/lind_1.html">Lind</a>: "9/11 cost al Qaeda about $500,000, while America is spending about $5 billion a month to lose in Iraq and Afghanistan." -Lind</p>
    
    <p>(Via <a href="http://globalguerrillas.typepad.com/johnrobb/">John Robb's Weblog</a>.)</p>
    
    <p>Currently playing in iTunes: <i>Raise Your Glasses</i> by James Miska</p>
    
    <p>i would totally use this. in a heartbeat.</p>
    
    <p><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/joshuabryant/90432666/" title="photo sharing"><img src="http://static.flickr.com/17/90432666_6e35127fc2_m.jpg" alt="" style="border:solid 2px #000000;"></a></p>
    
    <p><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/joshuabryant/90432666/">Mail Widescreen Mockup</a></p>
    
    <p>Originally uploaded by <a href="http://www.flickr.com/people/joshuabryant/">Joshua Bryant</a>.</p>
    
    <p>sxsw interactive is over now. it was awesome and exhausting, like these things always are. just quickly, here are a handful of quotes i heard during the past week.</p>
    
    <blockquote>
      slow and steady wins the race.<br>
      crashing and dead equals dead.<br>
      <a href="http://bookis.wordpress.com/">-bookis</a>
    </blockquote>
    
    <blockquote>
      i like to make new mistakes, not repeat the mistakes my peers have made.<br>
      -<a href="http://2006.sxsw.com/interactive/programming/panels/?action=bio&amp;id=81314">Dylan Schiemann</a>
    </blockquote>
    
    <blockquote>
      working at google seemed less like an interesting opportunity ...and more of a clusterfuck.
      -<a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joshua_Schachter">Joshua Schachte</a>
    </blockquote>
    
    <blockquote>
      you know what you like; there's nothing wrong with that.<br>
      <a href="http://veganstraightedge.com" rel="me">-me</a>
    </blockquote>
    
    <blockquote>
      you hear 37 signals talk about small teams. well, it doesn't get smaller than an husband and wife in a bedroom.<br>
      -<a href="http://mena.typepad.com/">mena trott</a>
    </blockquote>
    
    <blockquote>
      do our assumptions match your research?<br>
      -<a href="http://2006.sxsw.com/interactive/programming/panels/?action=show&amp;id=IAP060020">the design fab five</a><br>
      <em>research?</em><br>
      -<a href="http://2006.sxsw.com/interactive/programming/panels/?action=show&amp;id=IAP060077">craig newmark</a>
    </blockquote>
    
    <p>these are all the best that i could write them down after hearing them in the panel. so we'll call these paraphrases, but they are pretty damn close.</p>
    
    <p>we decided last minute to throw together this swimming party at the downtown hilton which is right across the street from the conference center.</p>
    
    <p><a href="http://upcoming.org/event/63311">here's the upcoming event page</a></p>
    
    <p>the important data is this:</p>
    <ul>
      <li>Monday, March 13</li>
      <li>8:00 PM - 10:00 PM</li>
      <li>Downtown Hilton Hotel</li>
      <li>500 E 4th St</li>
      <li><a href="http://upcoming.org/event/63311">RSVP</a></li>
      <li><a href="mailto:veganstraightedge@gmail.com">questions</a></li>
      <li>BRING YOUR SWIM TRUNKS / BATHING SUIT</li>
    </ul>
    
    <p>spread the word. see you there.</p>
    
    <p> <a href="http://audio.theresistancearmy.com/bands/2/james-miska"> james miska</a> : <a href="http://audio.theresistancearmy.com/albums/14/saol-ceol/by/james-miska">saol, ceol</a> </p>
    
    <p><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/veganstraightedge/653534295/" title="saol, ceol front cover by veganstraightedge, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1193/653534295_dfabd0a8df_m.jpg" alt="saol, ceol front cover"></a></p>
    
    <ul>
      <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/01-the-airplane-song.mp3">The Airplane Song</a></li>
      <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/02-a-plague-o-both-our-houses.mp3">A Plague O' Both Our Houses</a></li>
      <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/03-the-intersection.mp3">The Intersection</a></li>
      <li> <a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/04-anthem-of-positivity-for-the-traveling-adventure-seeking-and-otherwise-nomadically-minded-kids.mp3">Anthem Of Positivity (For The Traveling, Adventure-Seeking, And Otherwise Nomadically-Minded, Kids</a>)</li>
      <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/05-47-times.mp3">47 Times</a></li>
      <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/06-bloomington-backwoods.mp3">Bloomington Backwoods</a></li>
      <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/07-pendleton-revisited-radio-silence.mp3">Pendleton Revisited (Radio Silence)</a></li>
      <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/08-still-sleeps-tonight.mp3">Still Sleeps Tonight</a></li>
      <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/09-seriously-who-gives-a-fuck_-youre-wasting-your-life-thinking-about-it.mp3">Seriously, Who Gives A Fuck? You're Wasting Your Life Thinking About It.</a></li>
      <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/10-of-bicycles-and-butterknives-graveyards-and-a-grand-vision-of-things.mp3">Of Bicycles And Butterknives (Graveyards And A Grand Vision Of Things)</a></li>
      <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.s3.amazonaws.com/audio/bands/james-miska/saol-ceol/11-raise-your-glasses.mp3">Raise Your Glasses</a></li>
    </ul>
    
    <p>apple must be using fuzzy math to determine remaining file size left to zip up. seriously, 92 mb of 2.5 mb? its like its zipping through a <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Worm_hole">worm hole</a> that's connected to a tear in the <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Space-time_continuum">space time continuum</a> that requires 700 trillion trillion pounds of pressure to open. their <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flux_capacitor">flux capacitor</a> must be broken.</p>
    
    <p><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/veganstraightedge/153389189/" title="Photo Sharing"><img src="http://static.flickr.com/44/153389189_422cae2554_o.png" alt="92mb of 2.5mb"></a></p>
    
    <p>actually its ernest hemingway and jane austen. and actually its emily who said it. so take that. in a fury of hatred for high school mandatory reading, she said </p>
    
    <blockquote><p>ernest hemingway and jane austen can kiss my ass!</p></blockquote>
    
    <p>but then the next day i forgot and thought it was robert deniro and susan suranden. so the moral of the story is that she is crazy.</p>
    
    <p>months and months ago, my dear friend, James Miska, was playing house shows at boing! pretty often. so one of the times i borrowed a camera from my <em>friend </em><a href="http://crashycrashy.blogspot.com/">stef</a> and recorded his show. i <a href="http://veganstraightedge.com/articles/2005/9/19/1/james-is-the-cutest-ever/">wrote about and uploaded the songs</a> forever ago.</p>
    
    <p><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/veganstraightedge/59550082/" title="Photo Sharing"><img src="http://static.flickr.com/29/59550082_692a7f1085.jpg" alt="hugs not drugs." height="375" width="500"></a></p>
    
    <p>i love these songs. i listen to them <em><a href="http://homestarrunner.com/vcr_hs.html">like every single day</a></em>. seriously, there's a real magic to them. and like all art, music should always be free. so continuing in that spirit, i'm more than excited to do the same with the record he finally recorded. but, first a little back story...there was a band called trial. they were swell, but broke up, like all good bands seem to do. they decided to play a few reunion shows [seattle, wa and two in europe]. kids flocked from all over the country to sing those words one more time as if their lives depended on it. a handful of us from salt lake went there. enter, james and i.</p>
    
    <p><a href="http://veganstraightedge.com/articles/2005/10/5/1/the-northwest-passage/">he and i hitchhiked there together.</a> that was his first time hitching at all and my first time not going solo. it was <a href="http://veganstraightedge.com/articles/2005/10/13/2/trial-reunion-show-trip-day-2-rursday/">an </a><a href="http://veganstraightedge.com/articles/2005/11/2/1/trial-reunion-show-trip-day-3-friday/">awesome </a><a href="http://veganstraightedge.com/articles/2005/10/13/1/trial-reunion-show-trip-day-1-wednesday/">trip</a>. [look, i know i know. i'm sorry that i haven't finished blogging the rest of my travel journal. <a href="http://veganstraightedge.com/articles/2005/11/18/2/trial-reunion-show-journal/">i'll get to it.</a>] one of the highlights was getting a ride from a kid named krist kruger. he plays music under the moniker Southerly. he picked us up at a flying j in boise, ID, where we slept the night before, and took all the way to pendleton, wa where he was playing a show and invited us to come along. AWESOME!</p>
    
    <p>james and i were both stoked to have the ride and go to see a movie with him and share our food and to see him play out. but if he's no good? guh! [pulls on his collar] what will we do? fortunately, we didn't have to cross that bridge, because he blew us away.so fast forward 5 and half months to valentine's day 2006. southerly is playing a show here in salt lake at kilby court. james talks to the dude and gets on the show and surprises krist. it was real great. but in addition to the show james released his new / first record title "Saol, Ceol". camillo recorded him in his kitchen. it sounds real good. profesh.</p>
    
    <p>i had approached him a few weeks before about me wanting to do a small record label again, but this time internet only. [in the past i have done small labels called Pen15 records and riot.nrrrd.records]. he was downs, but still wanted a real cd. so... sure, i threw my hat into the ring on that one too. we busted our asses on it, i stared at my computer for like 40 hours on it, james did some handwriting, emily did some velcro and staples and we put together a nice little cd package.</p>
    
    <p><a href="http://audio.theresistancearmy.com/">the resistance army audio project</a> will be built out further later. but for now, here's james two records: <a href="http://veganstraightedge.com/articles/2005/9/19/1/james-is-the-cutest-ever/">live at boing</a> and <a href="http://veganstraightedge.com/articles/2006/3/7/2/james-miska-saol-ceol/">Saol, Ceol</a>.</p>
    
    <p><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/veganstraightedge/653534295/" title="saol, ceol front cover by veganstraightedge, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1193/653534295_dfabd0a8df_m.jpg" alt="saol, ceol front cover"></a></p>
    
    <p><a href="http://feeds.feedburner.com/oreilly/radar/atom?m=752">Google Dreams Big</a>:
    
    </p>
    

    From my personal interactions with Google's execs, with I completely agree that Google is sincere in this vision, and really is thinking big. But whether it's Google who builds this platform or someone else, or whether it's a tapestry woven collectively by many companies and projects, the vision that they lay out is one that we seem to be moving inexorably towards, barring the collapse of civilization as we know it. (Insert your disaster here.)

    <p>I'll go with "industrial collapse &amp; civilization crash as triggered by the over-dependence on / rapid depletion of fossil fuels, especially oil and natural gas, overpopulation and radical climate change. ...generally speaking the mentality of a cancer cell ['growth for the sake of growth']" for $400, please.</p>
    
    <p>i want to apologize for and explain the recent downtime this site has seen. first, my site [<a href="http://theresistancearmy.com/">the resistance army</a>, generally; my blog (<a href="http://veganstraightedge.com">tofu == love</a>), specifically] was being hosted on an <a href="http://everymac.com/systems/apple/powermac_g3/stats/powermac_g3_233_dt.html">old beige 233 g3 powermac</a> with a whopping 128mb ram and a 4 gb hard drive. a powerhouse of a machine, right? it was back in <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bloomington,_Indiana">bloomington, indiana</a> in a friend's office just sharing his network connection. it wasn't a screaming fast network, but was way good enough for my paltry needs.</p>
    
    <p>the reason it was back there was like this. back in 2001, i got laid off from a pretty sweet flash programming job at <a href="http://wisdomtools.com">wisdomtools</a> along with 30 or so other people. hard times and over inflated companies. so while i was looking around for some more work, i stumbled across imagination street which now defunct. they were a small web shop that had a sweet office setup in bloomington right above plan 9 video and the book corner. needless to say they were paying a pretty penny for that space. as business slowed down they realized they couldn't do that space anymore. not enough scrilla. so they moved across the square above talbots [ugh, god forsaken talbots. seriously <em>who</em> in their right mind shops at talbots?]. they got a pretty good setup at a pretty sweet location subletting from a guy who realized he didn't need a whole floor of office to himself. enter <a href="http://bloomington.in.gov/council/volans/">steve g. volan</a>.</p>
    
    <p>steve was one of the two brothers who started <a href="http://bluemarble.net">bluemarble</a>, a local ISP in the early days when an ISP was still a reasonable business to start. bluemarble has since merged / been bought by <a href="http://www.smithvilledsl.net/">smithville</a>. steve had since moved on from bluemarble and was doing his own thing under the name of the agate workshop [which he still does]. he also now owns and runs and awesome video store / small theatre call <a href="http://thecinemat.com/">the cinemat</a> in bloomington. steve's an awesome dude. he's young enough to be a friend; old enough to be a mentor kind of role. the hours we've spent talking are so dear and valuable to me.</p>
    
    <p>so anyhow, imagination street moves into steve's offices. i continue to do contract work for them. then one day out of nowhere, they're like "uhh... we're filing bankruptcy and closing up shop and moving out. sorry." weird. i understand. the bubble bursting and all that. but i had grown accustomed to having an office and desk and internet and stuff OUTSIDE of my house. so i worked things out to sublet directly from steve just a desk in his office / storage room. my friend <a href="http://runskip.com/">boice tomlin</a> got in on it, too. then later kurt whitsel whom also worked at wisdomtools and was laid off the same time i was. and for a time things were good. we were each paying very very little to have a desk and an office and screaming network connectivity.</p>
    
    <p>[ boice later moved to portland and was living The Life there for a few years, i think. and it seems like he's back in bloomington and is still doing web development which is awesome. his company is called <a href="http://runskip.com/">runskip</a>. boice was one of those people in my life helped to steer me down a path i might not've taken, but am glad that i did. that path was <a href="http://php.net/">PHP</a>. php ended up being a really big change for me and was all i did for the next few years. so much so that i've considered getting a <a href="http://www.bmezine.com/tattoo/A40305/high/dsc010660.jpg">php tattoo</a> (like this but on my calves). the path of php is littered with curly braces, question marks and semi-colons. its a messy path. but its the path that lead me to where i am today. ::cough:: <em>rubyonrails</em> ::cough:: and i'm happy with where i am these days. so thanks, boice. i owe you one.]</p>
    
    <p>then i started traveling a bunch, then moved away from bloomington. so i moved my computer into the server room and just used it as a webserver for my little projects. then steve started getting charged more for t1 line or whatever he had. so i started getting charged more. and for what it was [my own machine collocated that i had physical access to, a <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/IP_address">static ip</a> and no sharing with other people ] the price was still great. but i reached a point where i didn't want to be a sysadmin anymore, b/c frankly i'm no good at it and it bores me. other people love it and are very good and doing it. so needless to say, i'm sure i did plenty of things that you shouldn't do as a sysadmin. so things went wrong.</p>
    
    <p>my machine had the physical limit of <a href="http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/B00006F7S2/102-3945705-8156166">10.2.8</a>. ugh. i couldn't run a lot of the updates i wanted to. i also didn't know how to install software packages remotely under <a href="http://web.archive.org/web/20021129093614/www.apple.com/macosx/">jaguar</a>. [look, i know there is <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/XPostFacto">XPostFacto</a>, but i thought it was flaky when i tried it. and i also know i could've run linux on my powermac, but i'm not into that.] so somehow someway something bad happened. and recently steve started noticing some Serious Network Slowdown, ran some tests, deduced it was my machine and unplugged it. that's fair. it was causing problems for everyone else. i had even noticing that it was making my blog posts incredibly slow to upload. all this happened while i was traveling recently. so i couldn't really do anything i got home. so there was two weeks on downtime.</p>
    
    <p>steve put it back up long enough for me to download what i needed. then i migrated to a new host: <a href="http://textdrive.com/">TextDrive</a>. and things seemed good again. then i was rearranged the domains on my TxD account and managed to bork my blog. again. but things are sorted out now. i've got about 20 posts started in the drafts folder. so i'll try to stay on it a little better.</p>
    
    <p>and that, my 4 loyal readers, is why the site has been wonky lately and is now back in full effect.</p>
    
    <p>Currently playing in iTunes: <i>England</i> by Ghost Mice</p>
    
    <p>its not funny like 'i told you so', either. its actually not funny at all.</p>
    
    <p><a href="http://www.starwars.com/databank/character/ulicqeldroma/eu.html">ulic qel droma</a> has always been my favourite jedi. not so much because of what he did or didn't do, but i just thought they told his story really awesomely. [yes, awesomely.] but i feel more and more like him.</p>
    
    <p>i, like ulic, have allowed myself to wander down the wrong path. the path that leads to the dark side. and like ulic, i have seen what i've become; the person i have always despised. so like ulic, i'm leaving.  the best thing i can call it is a vision quest. which isn't quite right though. i need to get perspective. distance usually gives me distance.</p>
    
    <p>unlike ulic, i have friends that care about me enough to help me rather than just kicking me to the curb. also, unlike ulic, i hopefully won't get shot with a blaster through my chest.</p>
    
    <p>maybe in time, like ulic, i too will find redemption.</p>
    
    <p>to those that i have wronged over the years, i am truly sorry. i hope to one day make it up to you.</p>
    
    <p>a couple weeks ago after <a href="http://fox.com/oc">the o.c.</a> <a href="http://crashycrashy.blogspot.com">steff</a>, <a href="http://saturdaypark.blogspot.com">teej</a> and i were all sitting around nerding on the digital interweb. all on our respective power/i books. man, it was ever nerdy. it was pretty nice actually to have a that feeling of similar minded/actioned people around me. you see, i don't have many computery nerds in my life these days. even fewer geeks who get excited about things like database modeling, polymorphism, mvc, refactoring, complex data abstraction and things like it. <a href="http://elisfanclub.com/blog">eli</a> is really my go to guy on stuff like that, but he's like 2000 miles away. [soon to be only 1000 miles!] so having teej and steff down for the nerd cause and on team mac really makes me happy.</p>
    
    <p>so quite a bit of our time that night was spent on a site called <a href="http://consumating.com">consumating</a>. i learned about it, because everyone in the tech blogosphere was talking about how they just got bought by c|net and how big of a deal that was. so i thought i'd check it out. its basically like a modern, 'we get the web 2.0 thing', version of <a href="http://hotornot.com">hot or not</a> (remember that thing? ugh.) but aimed at nerdy/indie boys and girls. its pretty alright.</p>
    
    <a href="http://consumating.com/profiles/veganstraightedge">i'm on there</a>. <a href="http://consumating.com/profiles/smashysmashy">so is steff</a>. teej was, but then got over it pretty fast and dropped out. <a href="http://consumating.com/profiles/naughtyveganlady">courtney is doing it, too.</a>
    
    <p>Currently playing in iTunes: <i>November's Lie(extended dance remix)</i> by By the Grace of God</p>
    
    <p>i figured i'd put together a list of all the places that i have some identity online. this is as much for me as anyone else.</p>
    
    <ul>
      <li><strong>contact info</strong></li>
    
      <li>
        <ul>
          <li><a href="http://veganstraightedge.com">blog</a></li>
          <li><a href="mailto:veganstraightedge@gmail.com">email</a></li>
          <li><a href="goim?screenname=gyromx">aim</a></li>
        </ul>
      </li>
    
      <li><strong>projects</strong></li>
    
      <li>
        <ul>
          <li><a href="http://theresistancearmy.com/">the resistance army</a></li>
          <li><a href="http://zinedistro.org">zinedistro</a></li>
        </ul>
      </li>
    
      <li><strong>social networks</strong></li>
    
      <li>
        <ul>
          <li><a href="http://consumating.com/profiles/veganstraightedge">consumating</a></li>
          <li><strike><a href="http://myspace.com/myspaceequalsdeath">myspace</a>, but not for long</strike></li>
        </ul>
      </li>
    
      <li><strong>online geekery</strong></li>
    
      <li>
        <ul>
          <li><a href="http://technorati.com/profile/gyromx">technorati</a></li>
          <li><a href="http://upcoming.org/user/44401/">upcoming</a></li>
          <li><a href="http://del.icio.us/veganstraightedge">del.icio.us</a></li>
          <li><a href="http://flickr.com/photos/veganstraightedge">flickr</a></li>
        </ul>
      </li>
    </ul>
    
    <p>Currently playing in iTunes: <i>BlackSmokeBridgeFire</i> by By The Grace Of God</p>
    
    <p>everyone's doing it. so why not me too, right? here are some of my predictions for the new calendar year.</p>
    
    <ul>
      <li><strike>gas prices will stay insanely low [right around two dollars] until after february-ish</strike></li>
      <li>remember, when gas prices were three dollars? that will seem low compared to what's coming down the pike. i predict 3.50 - 4.00 per gallon prices</li>
      <li>massive amounts of mortgage defaulting and house repossession. [get a clue, your house is too big, you can't afford it, and the housing bubble is over] </li>
      <li><strike>the web will be flooded with tons of little startups focusing on the very small this time around, instead of the very large</strike></li>
    
      <li><strike>there will be even more acquisitions by the very large web companies [google, yahoo, microsoft, and ostensibly apple] of said small web startups</strike></li>
      <li><strike>despite all the acquisitions there will be a new ethic of staying small and independent which will lead to staying mobile, agile and quick to respond to market/user demands</strike></li>
      <li>the o.c. will end the season and call it quits for good. [seriously, do you remember <em>90210</em> after they all went to college in beverly hills or, god even worse, <em>saved by the bell : the college years</em>]</li>
      <li>anna will come back to the o.c. before its over</li>
    
      <li><strike>we'll find out what spider-woman's up to in the new avengers</strike></li>
      <li>kevin smith and joe quesada will start finishing projects before shipping them</li>
      <li>our house comic library will continue to grow into the most bomb diggity thing ever. [yes, i said 'bomb diggity'. yes, i'm ok with that.] the amazon order is about to come thru with half superhero tights and capes stuff the other half indie / real life stuff. stoked</li>
      <li>bush will be impeached. nothing will change.</li>
      <li>there will be a coup in saudi arabia. any number of royal princes [there are kajillions of them] will make claims to the thrown, largely it won't matter who ends up as the new saudi king. there will be lawlessness all across saudi arabia [at some point it won't be 'saudi' arabia, just arabia, because the house of saud won't matter]. global guerrillas that have been training for a few years nows in afghanistan, iraq, chechyna, france, etc will import the lessons they've learned. state control won't stand a snocone's chance in death valley summertime. </li>
      <li>water wars will become more prevalent. south americans will fight water multinational corporations that have privatized their water [including rain]. african factions will continue to skirmish over water sources; it will not be pretty. everyone is a target. most notably, at least on the world events stage, the countries that are downstream from Egypt on the euphrates will grow more and more restless; it'll start with heated words, then threats, then kablamo. that could be the spark that lights the friction. that could be the influx point of global scale conflict with traditional alliances thrown by the way side. energy demands will dictate international efforts from here on out.</li>
    
      <li><strike>i get a special lady friend in my life.</strike></li>
      <li>avail will release a new record.</li>
      <li>against me! will break up. [not that i WISH this would happen. i really really like them. i could just <em>see</em> it happening.]</li>
      <li>the palestinian intifada will make seriously in roads. the tide will turn.</li>
      <li>the mexican government will try to make a move on the zapatista. it will fail resulting in more attention to the zapatista struggle [and likewise other similar ones around the world] and harsher criticisms of the mexican government in the global community. poverty will still be the harvest in all the corners of that nation</li>
    
      <li><strike>i don't know where or why [specifically], but more and more countries will start to break apart into smaller regional states based more on ethnic or cultural similarities rather than arbitrary man made borders</strike></li>
      <li>all countries besides saudi arabia will peak in oil extraction/production</li>
      <li>more importantly, our demand for oil will outstrip capacity [our ability to extract/refine/produce it]</li>
      <li>zinedistro will blow up. passing 1000 pro members.</li>
    </ul>
    
    <p>and those are just off the top of my head</p>
    
    <p>Currently playing in iTunes: <i>A Credit To His Gender</i> by Good Riddance</p>
    
    <p>right before that holiday at the end of november where most people celebrate the wholesale slaughter of millions of indigenous peoples of the americas, this band called <a href="http://www.buyolympia.com/crimethinc/sid=344569896/plastic.html">requiem</a> played a show in provo. so a bunch of us salt lake kids that basically all live at the same intersection [some people have started calling this intersection 'revolution square', but i digress] went up there for the house show. it was a couple of provo bands, requiem and greyskull from tacoma, washington. i haven't had that much fun at a house show or a hardcore show in a long long time. it was good to see brian from requiem again. and what's his face from greyskull. he's so freaking posi, its great. the tacoma kids are also big proponents of the game where one person makes a circle fingers [like the a-ok sign] below someone else's waste. if person #2 looks at it then person #1 gets to punch person #2. except with the caveat that we don't play with punching, just humiliation and ridicule. good times. good times. </p>
    
    <p>after the show, most of the salt lake kids went up to the spanish fork area to some hot springs. apparently, everyone was supposed to know about the plan for doing this ahead of time. i didn't, neither did shawn, neither did a bunch of people. so we ended up with some people not quite properly prepared in the clothing, lights, and towel departments; namely we hade 2 towels for 14 people. ugh. oh yeh. there was snow on the ground, you could see your breath and it was a two mile hike into the mountains to get to the hot spring.</p>
    
    <p>now, when i say 'hot spring', that's more of a figure of speech than a statement of fact. first off, somewhere up the mountain from us was a spring. from there someone had run a long rubber hose to some rock formations that would make for good soaking. it also wasn't 'hot' so much as luke warm. and jesus christ, the sulfur stink was unbearable.</p>
    
    <p>so as everyone is getting nekkid and dipping into the luke warm springs, shawn and i sit there, share a look at each that says "you're not really getting in there are you?" "who me? hell no."</p>
    
    <p><em>plan b.</em> we saw some orange fire looking flashes down the hill a bit that we decided to explore further. turns out someone did not heed warnings of smokey the bear about putting camp fires out <em>completely.</em> so what we have here is a burning ember poking out of the middle of the creek/small river running through it all. </p>
    
    <p>just so we're clear, let me repeat that:</p>
    
    <blockquote><strong>we found fire in the water.</strong></blockquote>
    
    <p>this is too good to pass up. shawn pulls it out. we find little bits of tinder and nurse it back to a small campfire. when we're out scouting out more firewood to keep it going, we stumble across a bunch of dry branches clearly already pulled by someone for just this purpose. oh, right next to it is a fire pit that someone already made. jesus. we're just finding everything. if post crash was only this easy. we proceed to transplant the fire from the first spot [in the middle of the trail] to the fire pit and build it up right big like. we also found a candle in a jar lying around that we used as a kind of flashlight for finding more wood.</p>
    
    <p>everyone heckled us for not getting in and basking in the stinky luke warmness, but then everyone enjoyed the fire when they were wet in the god forsaken cold with two towels for the 12 of them. score another down for pragmatism.</p>
    
    <p>yes, we found fire in water. yes, we found a fire pit. yes, we found a candle and firewood ready to go. but the really amazing thing was the time spent with my friend shawn. maybe its something primal about building a fire. maybe it was because it was dark and it was hard to see each other so much. maybe the universe stepped back and took notice of us that night. but something happened out there. 'male bonding', 'good talk, see you out there' and 'building kinship' all do a grave injustice in describing the closeness and openness we shared that night.</p>
    
    <p>we both said things that we needed to, that were important and weren't easy to say. we made ourselves vulnerable like when orca whales float on their backs showing the tender underbelly. we showed our weaknesses hoped for the best and were received by a friend who cared.</p>
    
    <p>thank you, shawn. i won't soon forget that night.</p>
    
    <p>Currently playing in iTunes: <i>November's Lie</i> by By The Grace Of God</p>
    
    <p>i have a very dear friend named leslie ware. we met when i lived in atlanta for art school. i haven't talked to her in a couple years and my contact information on her is dead in the water. so if anyone as any way of getting her in contact with me that'd be awesome.</p>
    
    <p>wesley ware where are you?</p>
    
    <p>Currently playing in iTunes: <i>Communist Moon</i> by the (international) noise conspiracy</p>
    
    <p>i want to do more, by doing less. fewer projects pulling me in different directions, so that i can give each project more attention. having said that here are the projects:</p>
    
    <ul>
      <li><strong>zinedistro</strong></li>
    
      <li>
        <ul>
          <li>beta by valentine's day</li>
          <li>1.0 by the ides of march</li>
          <li>100 zines at beta launch</li>
          <li>25 zines / month</li>
          <li>announce at sxsw</li>
        </ul>
      </li>
    
      <li><strong>house projects</strong></li>
    
      <li>
        <ul>
          <li> <em>keep improving room</em>:</li>
          <li>door knob,</li>
          <li>corner molding,</li>
          <li>crown molding.</li>
          <li> <em>keep improving basement</em>:</li>
          <li>organize food reserves on shelves / in bins,</li>
          <li>organize tshirts for printing,</li>
          <li>remove shower,</li>
          <li>remove sink,</li>
          <li>remove pipes,</li>
          <li>setup screen printing gear.</li>
          <li><em>...more later as seasons change</em></li>
        </ul>
      </li>
    
      <li><strong>the resistance army</strong></li>
    
      <li>
        <ul>
          <li><em>grow out the resistance army list of projects:</em></li>
          <li>zinedistro</li>
          <li>blogs [me, eli, b(r)ookis, supersecretsquat]</li>
          <li>shirts</li>
          <li>sweatshop free printing</li>
          <li>bikes</li>
          <li>analog zinedistro</li>
        </ul>
      </li>
    
      <li><strong><em>non-ongoing projects for later</em></strong></li>
    
      <li>
        <ul>
          <li>art show</li>
          <li>film fest</li>
          <li>workshops</li>
        </ul>
      </li>
    </ul>
    
    <p>so that's it. i'm gonna try to trim the fat and focus on the stuff that is important and Let That Which Does Not Matter Truly Slide.</p>
    
    <p>Currently playing in iTunes: <i>Come Dancin'</i> by Good Riddance</p>